Dear God,
I’m really tired, but I pray that I will be able to continue pushing towards the goal ahead. There are deadlines I have to meet, work to catch up on, and it’s honestly easy to feel tired, overwhelmed, and wonder where my place is in all of this. But all I can do is look to You. Trust that You’re going to figure it out. Breathe. Be still more than be productive. Try my best. Know that it’ll be better than okay.
Love, Grace
I find myself struggling to write a blog each week, not because I don’t like blogging -- but my thoughts have been everywhere. School has been full speed ahead, and I feel the pressure. I also feel physically tired. Three hours of lab, maybe lunch if I’m not practicing, and then usually four hours of class. I still need to practice. I still need to go home, eat dinner, wash up, prepare food the next day, and find time to dedicate to studying.
Something I’m realizing is that we can be where we think God wants us to be, but it’s not going to always be the easiest or happiest seasons of our lives because of it. Being aligned with God’s plans for your life isn’t a comfortable, breezy, sleep-filled dream. Sometimes it is. It definitely has its moments. It’s just that tough. It’s good. It’s meaningful. It’s purposeful. But day-to-day isn’t a walk in the park (although there is one just outside of school).
I think something I get sad about is the mistakes I’ve been making. Either not feeling productive enough, not waking up as early as I’d like, and not being as skilled as I’d like to be. I just don’t feel like I’m doing enough or being enough to get through the next few years.
Sometimes I’m grouchier than I should be. Sometimes I have too many lectures to catch up on. Sometimes I just need a breather. Sometimes it’s okay because I don’t have to be enough to make it through, God can make a way for me.
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